Sometimes it is not easy to decide what to write. Where do i want to draw a line? Is it maybe too private to share? I mean it is the internet we're talking about, once it's out there there's no turning back. But then i think, that if i really was afriad of putting myself out there i would not have started this blog in the first place. I know right now, most people that read this blog are family and friends, but of course i would love for this place to grow and reach other people and who knows, maybe they go or went through similar experiences and maybe i can help, or get some help.
Blogging is about sharing, about opening up and showing your strengths AND your weaknesses. Even if most of my pictures are happy pictures of happy moments, that does not mean that everything is perfect all the time. But that's what life is all about, to enjoy the happy times and to cope with the difficult ones. To learn from mistakes and always, always keep on moving.
I have been having a difficult time this past weeks. Have you ever had this feeling where you do things just out of inertia? You know, the earth moves under your feet and you just move with it, without really noticing what you're doing. The weather has not been helping at all either. It's april and it's sooo cold! I have zero motivation to do anything. The twins presents and party decorations for Raul's party were luckily made before this great depression started.
I feel stuck in a never ending loop of waiting. Waiting for a change, waiting for the next step in my life, waiting for the next big adventure and it's frustrating because i know that right know there is nothing i can do to change but keep waiting and hoping that everything will be alright. The back story to all this ranting will also be shared, but not today. There are still some things to be taken care of before i'm ready.
Right now, i'm trying really hard to relax, to take one day at the time, to take care of my furry baby as good as a depressed dogmom can (luckily Lola is not a pup anymore, which means i get more free time), to keep on the cooking and the proyects. There is actually a very exciting trip at the beginning of next month and i still haven't shown you our bathroom renewals. So much stuff and so little motivation... energy... depressing...
But that's what i like about sharing, that after opening up (at least a little bit) you feel somewhat better... lighter ;-) I hope you got to get me a little bit better after all this emotional rambling. I promise to keep on sharing, the good and the not so good.
And because i'm a fan of pictures i leave you with a furry baby making herself comfortable on top of an unmade bed and some watercolor painting...
I wish you all happy easter, have a nice weekend and T.G.I.F.!